You don’t know me, but I’m a huge fan of yours, I really hope you read this, but I understand if you can’t..that’s okay…I know we will meet one day, and I’m really looking forward to it. I heard that you have been getting bullied at school a lot, and I am so sorry you are going through this pain, no one deserves to be called the horrible names you have by your classmates, perfect strangers, and even your father. People don’t understand what is different, they are scared of anything foreign to their little bubble of a life, I promise, you will be okay. How is school though? I know you love to learn, and like me, History, English and filmmaking are a few of your favorite things, keep up with them, you will be praised for your achievements one day. Can you still cook? I heard that when you were younger, your Mom taught you the way around a kitchen and you LOVE to cook with her, they are some of your favorite memories, never give that up, cooking for someone you love exudes good vibes. I can’t believe you already have two jobs! You’re a bus boy AND you work for your brothers landscaping business? I also love being outdoors and making things beautiful, keep saving your money, it will take you far away from your town one day soon.
I’m sorry to tell you this, but your Dad isn’t going to change anytime soon, he really loves you, he does, you know how hard he has worked to create a life in America for you and your family, but he’s sick, mental illness and alcoholism is a scary mix, but you will survive and know to never be the person he was when you are a father one day. Your Mother is amazing isn’t she? Such a hard worker, she’s my hero, and I know she is yours too, you guys are best friends, you’ve seen the world together and she has always had your back, but one day you wont be her little boy anymore, and you’ll see her go through a heartbreaking divorce, be there for her, it will all be okay, you’re a survivor, because she’s a survivor. You are wise beyond your years, but your biggest wish is for friends, a lot of them! You want to be the popular kid with the perfect family, and you will be, even if its just for a short time, you will realize that being popular doesn’t matter, after graduation, the only people still by your side, will be the ones who were there from the start.
Daniel, nothing is perfect, and everyone has their flaws, you are perfect in your imperfections and you will accept that one day. The few friends you have will become your family, cherish them, because you never know what each day brings, hold Alex close, she’s your sister forever, didn’t you date in kindergarten? You’ve known each other since you were born, she will always be there for you, a unconditional love like that is hard to find. But you will love one day, that will crush you when its over. But years later, when your heart has healed, someone special will stumble into your life, and turn it upside down, spoiler alert, he is the best person you will ever meet. He will love and cherish you like the prince you are, and you will do the same to him. Did I mention he’s cute? I think, beautiful, is a better word, he will bring out the best in you, and accept you at your worse, but force you to change for the better, which in-turn will mold you into the man you will become.
I know the bullying is hard to deal with, being called “fat” and “faggot” will happen a lot, its sad cause you don’t even know what being gay means right now; Going to a Christian school shelters you so much. And don’t worry, just cause you get into trouble a lot doesn’t mean you’re a bad kid, you question authority due to a hunger to discover the secrets of life, you are perfect the way you are. Are you going to college? Or the Air Force? Have you decided yet? I think college is for you, you’re so smart and it will be a great shelter for you, where you will learn, grown and work to become someone better than your prior environment, you’ll also meet a special girl there, her name is Hope, you will carry her during the hardest time in her life, she will think she can’t go on anymore, but don’t let her fall, she needs you now most, and for this, she will be forever grateful, she will become like a sister, and her family will love you like you wish yours did, they will appreciate all your differences and quirks and treat you as a son forever. The most beautiful thing about people with estranged families, is that you are able to choose your life family through those who love you, for you.
I hope you never lose your childish innocence, I hope you learn to love yourself, and stop comparing yourself to others, you have an amazing self-esteem your confidence is intoxicating, never give up your dreams, you know what they are, and they will all come true, I promise. Just keep working, and never get comfortable or take anything for granted, people will remember your heart of gold, work ethic and forthrightness, you are a shining star, your time will come.
Daniel, its been so great chatting, but I have to run to set, we are shooting a short film with some amazing people, I think you’re going to love it, you’re starring in it too! Can’t wait to see you soon. Remember, live to the beat of your own heart, never stand down for what is RIGHT and TRUE, be kind, give more than you receive, and learn to love yourself first before giving your heart away to the first person who comes along. You are at your greatest when surrounded by those you love and treasure, you’re a fighter, so prepare for battle, this world is a scary place, but you’ve got a good head on your shoulders. Know your priorities and don’t go out too much in college, I know you have your brothers ID!
Oh! PS: Both of your brothers love you, regardless of your differences, there’s nothing like blood, don’t ever forget where you came from. I’ll be seeing you, in all the familiar places..